List Of Three

Y'all know I love lists. So Lets just get to it. This weekend was fanwonderlous.
 Top 3 reasons.

1. Getting all dressed up for Lo and Behold Dinner Theatre. Me and my mother in law were unpurposefully matching. And Lee is just one gorgeous man. Don't you agree?

2. Feeding the baby sancho goat. Me and Lee considered getting a goat for half a second. Then Mirabelle started making incredibly annoying noises (neighing?) Teacup piggy here we come!

3. I had a dream that Lee came to my room at 2 a.m. and scooped me up in a big hug! In the process of his scoop he pulled out my earing. In the dream I was too tired to care. Imagine my surprise when my pearl earing lay in bed with me the next morning! I interrogated Lee. Turns out it wasn't a dream!

Hope your weekend was a spectacular as mine!!

Bubbles!!!!!!!!!!!!!

On Sunday, I sat in between my boyfriend and my friend at church. I held hands with both of them. I am not ashamed that when we stood up for prayer, everyone behind us probably thought we were in some sort of strange open relationship. Instead I would have been ashamed to have not appreciated God's grace in my life at the moment.

I did nothing to deserve the                               I did nothing to deserve the
love of mi novio. But God                                      friendship of smEllie. But
loves Lee and God uses                                        God cares for her and God
Lee to show me how much                                     uses her to show me how
God loves me.                                                         much God cares for me.

 

Later that night I lay in bed and decided not to read my bible or pray or journal. I decided to blow bubbles from my  new bubble necklace that Lee bought me. I always want to remember how I felt sittin' in God's presence and just blowin' bubbles. Maybe next time I have a bad day I can pull that feeling out and have peace beyond understanding. Bubbles are like God's grace. Perfect and complete and only destructed when earthly matters interfere. 

Plus... arent they beautiful????? 

Relinquishing Control

Me and LenLee are renovating his our the trailer.

We're hoping by the end of this renovating period the trailer will look like this:

So far I've chosen:
1. couch fabric- dark brown
2. tiles for the floors
3. tiles in the kitchen
4. cabinet handles
5. cabinet stain
6. faucet styles and colors

Feeling like this wasn't a "joint effort" and more of a "me-effort" [but hellooooo, i'm the girl!], 

I decided to let him choose the paint color. 

This was a very small leash though. I told him

1. no bright colors!
2. no dark colors!
3. no designs!
4. a derivative of off-white, beige, or tan, if you will!

And the only space we're considering painting is fairly small compared to the rest of the trailer. 

But as small the space that I gave him to exercise his creative side... We ended up with:

1. bright yellow walls
2. with dark
3. boxes as the design

That's what I get for making my colorblind novio choose paint colors.

Pics coming sooooon!

Uncommon

Life Uncommon Song from Grace Point Church on Vimeo.

Life Uncommon Song from Grace Point Church on Vimeo.

A common day, an ordinary day

My feet are tired, You seem so far away

The same old song, the same forgotten dreams

I've turned into the person that I didn't think I'd ever be

To a life uncommon, running instead of crawling

Kneeling so I can fall 

into the arms of love uncommon

I've been asleep so come awaken me

Unleash the passion You designed and put inside of me

Uncommon grace, uncommon mercy

Give me compassion for the world You put in front of me

My heart is yours, my soul is aching

To take the opportunities I've never taken

I need rebirth, a new beginning

To shake me up, to push me out of the comfort I've been living in

Quick Thought On A MiniVacation

The other night I had trouble sleeping. At 3 A.M. my eyes were wide open and I notice three things

1. my composition notebook untouched on my bedside table

2. my giant winnie the pooh bear sitting lifelessly in my swivel chair

3. my paper mached van gogh vase resting high on a bookshelf

I wonder how these "things" became things I remember my determination as I flipped through 20 different magazines looking for the perfect letters and shapes to decorate the front of my brand new journal. I remember putting that pooh bear in the walmart shopping cart and my genuine surprise when my daddy actually let him stay there, and be brought home. I remember how nervous I was showing the vase at an art competition, and how joyful i felt when it received a 56/60. So how did these items that at one point held so much wonderful emotion become unnoticed, unthought about "things"?

How did God and our relationship with His Son become just some"thing"? 

something holding us back
something we rely on when sad
something we think about on sundays.
something lonely. something familiar.

We need to yearn for God like we may have in the beginning.

You'll Come; Flood Into Our Thirsty Hearts Again

I have decided

I have resolved

To wait upon You Lord

My rock and Redeemer

Shield and reward

I'll wait upon You Lord

We are not shaken

We are not moved

We wait upon You Lord

Mighty deliverer

Triumph and truth

We wait upon You Lord

I've been so troubled lately. 
Taken by the world's promises of happiness found in riches, earthly glory, and sin. 
But God reflected the pain of my own struggles in the face of someone I love. 
And I remembered... my worth is given by the promises of The Lord God Almighty. 
He delivered me from the falsities of this world. 
He promises me joy rather than fleeting happiness 
as long as I dwell with in him and allow him to dwell with in me. 


So all of a sudden I'm reminded what it means to wait. 
To be still and know that my God is truth. 
That I am worth it because He is worth this.

I have decided. I have resolved... to wait upon You, Lord.

Of course, my darling Lisa once again steals the words out of my heart. We do that to each other often.

A Tad Obsessed

I have become such an OBSESSIVE person. 

No I'm not declaring to the world I have OCD like everyone else and their aunties 

(so they say... I'm skeptical... Just because you watch True Life 

does not mean you have OCD, just throwin' that out there)
But I think by 'obsessed' I mean I'm going through many phases at once, 

so my obsessive personality is coming out! Judge for yourself!!

1/5 NETFLIX: I can't even watch normal TV anymore because I love the instant gratification that Netflix offers. I'm the epitome of American decadence! Thank God me and Lee split the price because originally I planned to have it for just one month, but now I'm addicted which works out so he can watch his X-files.

2/5 ORANGE LEAF is this yummazing froyo place. Theres a million places like it, so what makes it special is that it's five minutes from my house! Lee estimates I spend 100 dollars there a month. [I even eat there twice in one day sometimes.] I was sick. I needed something light. I got addicted. So I vow to myself I will not eat there until February.

3/5 LOOSE CLOTHING: Anything thats not falling off the shoulder feels too tight. And as far as pants, I've been rocking really loose yoga pants and jeggings. I got really sick a couple weeks ago and so I've lost about 7 pounds in a month. I'm kind of embarrassed about how skinny I am right now so I think subconsciously the loose clothes are a tool to disguise. But in reality it makes me look smaller. :/

4/5 I don't even have a TWITTER but I can't stop looking at other people's! It gets stranger because no one I know of has a twitter, so it's all strangers. I don't really care for the conversations, thoughts, or links that people post; I'm fascinated when people say exactly where they are. @TwitterLover: I'm at the McDonalds on Blanco & 1604! Why would you do that? It's so sad that even my one of my Top Sites On Google Chrome is Twitter.

5/5 VINO. WINE. I don't drink and I won't drink until I'm 21. But I already know as soon as it's February 28, 2012, I'm going to be such a wine-o. Everytime I'm in a store with wine I have to go look at it and choose my favorite bottle or color or name. Whenever I have a bad day, or am tired, or etc, I whine (pun intended) "I need a glass of wineeeeeeee." Then I make my own wine! Its two parts cranberry juice to one part gingerale. I crush up black cherrys and dump the cherries and the juice into the bottom of my wine glass. It's delicioooooooooso.

Uhhh, Goals Aren't The Same As Resolutions Are They?

These are in no particular order, but I'm hoping to do one a month since there's 12*

Skydive (in May for Lee's birthday}

See the Grand Canyon (in February for my birthday)

Learn to love my hair (unstraightened and flamboyantly curly)

Give away half my wardrobe

Build something with Lee (with our brand new tool sets)

Write a letter to friends in MX

Cut myself off from my parents financially (by December)

Learn one song on the piano (yes I'm gonna be that girl)

Find a church home

Do a puzzle over 1000 pieces

Sleep outside

Give my heart and soul to the homeless awerness outreach (this spring)

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From the time I was 7 to 16 my new years resolution was the same:

Be Nice To Merid and/or Make Merid Nice To You

At 17 I decided to switch my NYR to 

Be Happy!

Never had much luck with the Merid thing; 

but now that I've mastered happiness, I'm ready for something greater! 

 So instead of resoluting, I'm goal setting!

*there are actually 13 

but one of them is between me and somebody else. 

so you'll just have to stay tuned! 

i promise to blog about it when it happens ;)

An Impromptu Love Declaration

Fortunately for me, I have really great relationships with everyone in my boyfriends family. I adore spending time with his brothers and little cousins. And his parents spoil me with love and kindness. Unfortunately for him, most of my family lives in Europe [with a decent amount in Africa, and cousins in the Philippines and Australia]. So he doesn't get to see them often because.. I DONT GET TO SEE THEM OFTEN! So I am formally introducing him to my blog so you guys can meet him. :]

This is Leonard Lee Morgan III. 

I affectionately call him LenLee. You may call him Lee.

We met through IVCF; and fell in love. We took our time dating partly because we felt called to wait for God's timing, and partly because of a period of dating mistakes and a year of fighting. Soon physics would no longer let us be apart because our hearts were magnetized to the other's. We have differing opinions on when we started dating but we count it when I returned from MX. Sir Morgan has one more year of school but for now works for a landscaping company making beautiful works from God's creations. You might find him playing hisguitar, cooking a feast, or fiddling with his tools. We share a love of missions and latin america. Also, we both detest mushrooms.

CF, I love you because...

you don't care that i charmingly sleep with my mouth open. oh and drool... charmingly.

you pray over me every night, knowing the perfect words to intercess on my behalf.

you give my dreams wings and wind. and support my many-a-whimsical thought.

plus, you're just heartbreakingly adorable. i know you hate pda so i'll stop there.

Love, JB