Life.

If this is what being a single mom and missionary life looked like I would signed up sooner.

SOOOOOOOOO, I'm going to Mexico City this summer on a missions trip.
The "top of the world" is where I'm standing right now.
My dogs and I have been fighting for the past 48 hours.
They don't respect me. They don't appreciate me.
But we're working on it. I love them regardless.
And YOU. I love you regardless.

Hi Peggy.

That's What I'm Preachin

You say love is just a word, just four letters in a row.
Just a thing that people say, or they never tell you so.
And you use every excuse to let nobody in.
Now this cloud you bring around has become your only friend.

And everybody saying that it's going to go away, but it don't go.
And everybody's telling you one day it's going to change,
but you don't know... if it's really going to end.
But there is a way, there is a spark,
there is a hope that you can hold on to.
There is a lifeline come to the rescue,
just like a hand that's waiting for you.
And if you believe in this I promise that you won't be alone.
There is a way, the truth and the life, and the way.

But if love became a man, if the word had flesh and bone.
Would you recognize His face, if He came to bring you home.
You think you're all alone, gotta do it on your own riding solo.
Is there someone you can call, when you stumble and fall?
Cause you don't know, if you'll be getting up again.

There is a way, there is a spark,
there is a hope that you can hold on to.
There is a lifeline come to the rescue,
just like a hand that's waiting for you.
And if you believe in this I promise that you won't be alone.
There is a way, the truth and the life, and the way.

Don't you think your life's worth saving?
Don't you know that love's amazing?
Don't you want to lay your troubles down?
Lay them down.

If I thought love was just a word, I might feel the same way too.
But there's so much more than that, and it's waiting here for you.

Reflecting

I never update this thing. Probably because I have so many letters to write, and diary entries to document, and poems to edit, and school papers to turn in. Notice how school is at the end. I definitely have my priorities straight.
I've decided to update this because someone I know and care for recently told me they didn't know I was a writer. SHOCKING! I know. I wish he knew my high school english teacher, Mrs. Caruthers. She would have hit him over the head with a copy of The Canterbury Tales. It really was interesting to me. Most people don't know I got a full scholarship to Baylor solely because of my essay on abortion. Yes abortion... Well now I know that's one of the most boring topics to write about. Every college professor/admittance officer has read over a thousand of pro/con abortion papers.
But something about mine stuck out and I got a contingent full ride to be a Bear. Contingent because I had to major in English and live in the English learning community or some type of nonsense like that. Frankly I didn't ever really want to go and low and behold, me and God were for once on the same page about my future. But that's a whole nother story. This blog is about reflecting on the past year. This time last year I was not the Sosi I am today. Well... thats a lie. I've been the same person my entire life. Silly, whimsical, ridiculous. But last year this time I was really not enjoying the future. I wanted to transer out of UTSA and start a new life, in which I'd join a sorority and get colored contacts. I was tired of watching the movie Elf by myself in an oversized tee shirt and eating goldfish by the handful. But a year later and I'm loving life. I'm praising God I didn't transfer! So just in case maybe a college freshman ever happens to stumble upon this blog: stick in there! Trust in God and he will give you the desires of your heart!
So this is really boring... I already know. Kudos to you who is still reading. There's goldfish crackers inbetween my keys now so I better clean that up. After I finish washing Elf though... of course. (And yes, I'm definelty rocking the over sized tee shirt.) Just because I'm happier doesnt mean I had to change myself at all. And that reflection is the best.