Prayer Needed Please

All of a sudden I don't want to go to Mexico. Not at all.
What if I'm supposed to be in San Antonio this summer?
Which I know is bollocks... Nonsense.

Hopeful.
Shocked.
Happy.
Too guilty to be excited.
Confident.
Humbled.
Excited to be sent by God.
Scared Poopless.

this is supposed to be me looking scared. 

i tried the biting my finger nails approach

but i looked like i was playing the harmonica. 

so this is as close as my modeling skills got to 

pure unadulterated FEAR.